  Tuesday, October 27, 2009, 8:54 PM
Getting really discombobulated.
HAHAHAA, phrasebook rocks. Getting all the shit nowadays from different people. and it tires me out really. WHAT DID I EVEN DO TO THOSE WHO DISLIKE/ANGRY WITH ME? maybe i don't listen to you talk because you think so. or you don't even know me. or you don't even get what is going on. ahhhhhhhhhh, i miss BPPS CO and choir. though i didn't join choir for more than 2 months when i quit after SYF 2006. hahhaa sorry to CO, but the people in choir was better then. though CO is very bonded. Not performing for p6 open house due to being filed under "uncooperative during choir". don't know whether i can leaked this out, but urmmm well, i feel pretty pissed and sad over it. but there is really nothing i can do. i have already listened to the best of my ability. kept my volume down. stopped talking to xinyuan like 90% of the time. we only talk when necessary now. and i go for all the practices, even those non-attendance. ok, i may be noisy and uncooperative at times. but i am just a secondary one. how much can you really expect from me. now it's not a matter of transferring cca, got to really hmm, be like wenhui standard during choir to prevent myself from the possibilities of getting kicked out. i bitched about all this to my mom. and she told me to just forget it, because you can't stop people from what they think and you have your own freedom to control your thoughts. Martin Luther once said something like you can't prevent birds flying over your head, but you can't prevent them from building a nest in your hair. it made me feel a little better. AH, what is the use of the damn mc of excuse for two months. not running, outdoor activities. eczema is still majority attributed to stress and emotions. so maybe they should just send me to IMH to calm myself down there. maybe i am reading too much into things like i always do. ah, i really feel like. "that face is just so slappable" vocab outburst during sectionals. had sexuality education. interesting stuff happened during the concurrent sessions ahhahahaaaa. recess was interesting too. pbl was painting and dirtying my uniform. but recently i don't have much ideas for painting bottles, so i pity those p6s who are getting the bottles i painted. school ended early, but couldn't go with the others to paint the PBL banner due to choir. went down the stairs with xinyuan when we saw valetta so we decided to stalk her. got found out and pulled to 2G2 to finish painting the choir banner. Xinyuan was like on cloud 9 in 2G2, ROFL. so there was choir. and it ended later than expected. i miss my primary school. ahh, i feel like some kindergartener who is crying to go home. but life was much more innocent there. and not one issue after another. i will just find some way through my next four years somehow. because, there will always be people who are worse off than me and needs more help. did you know your brain could store 100 trillion facts? it is pretty random. but found it pretty cool, it was in PDL( PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE ) today. |
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