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Sunday, November 22, 2009, 9:51 PM

what should i do?
i don't know.
no, not another emotional post.
but uh, if I ever close my heart due to this incident.
i am not a human at all, at least of my own expectations of myself.
now, i feel like i am a jerk.
uh, close my heart.
not in bgr terms, since i will never have one till i am matured (:

i feel soso sorry, for not objecting to it till it stopped.
i just objected lightly once and forgot about it.
never knew it will create problems.
i was ignorant of what happened.
but i am still guilty of not objecting it.
which i guess it's why i couldn't control my tears today over feeling guilt-ridden.

i never ever meant any harm to you in anyway.
so it totally shocked me when i heard it.
but nevertheless, i have to say.
I'm very,very sorry.

i have tried my best.

ok, stopstop!
emotions management.

went to church but not youth service.
had stomach flu so would delay my parent's time.
in time for sermon because my brother sort of wasted my time, vice versa.

had baptism class which was shorter today, but still interesting.
really help me cast away doubts of my own faith over the last 4 lessons.

had guitar- music camp prep.
today, kept pressing the wrong frats D:
but still did ok.
but my mom wants me to switch to keyboard so i don't know.

slept till 8.
from 6.
it's really tiring when you basically have nothing in your stomach when you have stomach flu.

and thanks for the get well soon wishes :D
done with fever.
but back with stomach flu.

but nvm, i believe God will help me (:
and get through some self-reflection.