Okay gonna rant about my fail love life.
Well not love life exactly but ugh how fail I am with my crushes.

Busy being an idiot so I went to see friendship with one of my longest lasting crush that lasted for like nearly 7 years.
Which finally ended recently, though I am still not sure whether there are still any lingering feelings for him.
THE WALL POSTS ARE DAMN SAD.
It's all from me wishing him hbd and on my birthday ever since I was 13 (since fb wasn't really that active before that) but yet none on my birthday.
I admit I always anticipate it ;;
Okay that's pretty cute/loser-ish idk but you can't rob a girl of her sweet fantasies.
But we've been friends on fb since Nov 2008 trolololol.
The saddest shit is that my best memory of him dates back to 2008.
& it's going to be 2012.
Well, it's weird if I had talk to him at all ever since we graduated.
I am sure he would suspect something lol although he should have known.

This is getting more depressing and lamer by the second, help.
I sound like some 9 year old kid.
Okay that's the age I started liking him.

HAHA latest infatuation is a no-no, just found out today.
Oh right, it's Christmas.
But today was a pleasant day~ ♥
Had fun with church mate and spent last night lying in bed being serenaded by SNSD heh.
Okay but the infatuation at least subsided alot.
It's gone.
Which is pretty sad.
Because I do not want to go back to pining for a guy who doesn't really care about my existence.

Whenever I really like a guy I would seriously try my best to make sure everyone around doesn't realises it before I get stupid and start telling everyone.
Keeping things in your heart just doesn't feel good at times.

Well being surprisingly calm while typing all this scares me.
But I think I am screwed sobs.
Screwed in the good way, perhaps.
Whenever I see my crush with another girl (note: a girl whom i admire/respect/like), I feel so frigging happy okay I would fangirl over them.
Then again I fangirl over every single couple because it's really cute ♥♥
I think this are the after-effects of reading too much shoujo mangas & dramas.

Then again when the dude was being all too nice to me I got freaked out.
Okay but he's too temperamental and predictable and that eventually got me sick and tired.
But tbh, I was scared out of my wits because he was too nice.